another year older......s

So here i am another year older....this time last year i was at least 27 kilos overweight and just starting this journey of weight loss and a new lease of life.

this time last year i couldn't feel my ribs so easily,or notice my collar bones starting to appear when i am getting dressed.

i have been looking at photos of me over the years,at 20,30 etc..and now i can see my face is looking different as my double chin[s] are going.

while i am changing on the outside,i feel there is much more to change and resolve on the inside.....

a friend has pointed out that i often in conversation refer back to my days in high school and talk about things that have happened to me in the past.

so ,it appears i am still screwed up!!! coulda said f***ed up.....

how to change...what to do..
first,i accept what is said,and NOT take it to heart which is what i have done FOREVER......................

then i begin to accept..and change....

feels like it's easier said than done..so i feel like a failure

12 months on..weighing less,but weighted down by my past..and can't sure how to let go...